I wake up to nothing every day. I think about my life - it's extremely depressing, upsetting and empty. especially with what is going on lately, there are alot to take in, a lot of emotions to be dealt with and it's taking its toll on me.
how is it that everyone makes me feel so worthless and unimportant? sadly not even a single cent. it's pathetic. I am pathetic.
I need a whole lot of happiness, securities and belongingness.
my heart sinks, each time I think about everyone, everything, all the memories, the 'used to bes', though i am fully aware that the good old days are gone and the people I know became the people I knew.
is that all? or there's more to come?
either I am the one pushing people away or they are. am I better off alone? it'd be good, if I am able to leave for another state. then again it's impossible and I obviously have some soul searching to do.
like what had happened recently. how is this fair? you tell me.
it's times like these where i have second thoughts abut everything and nothing feels right anymore. Take this nothingness away from me....... please.
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